Determination

Good morning everyone!

I have been considering so many blog posts for today and asked many for their opinions. In a texting conversation with my cousins Jose, i found exactly what i wanted to write about. Thanks primo for the inspiration and idea!

So as many of you already know i have 2 beautiful and simply amazing little girls who are the light of my life! That being said my oldest daughter who just recently turned 6 was born when i was just 17 years old approximately 2 months prior to my 18th birthday.

I remember the day that i found out i was pregnant! I was a senior in high school and it was a Saturday morning in September. I remember walking up and thinking, "OMG, why haven't i gotten my monthly friend?" So of course panic starting setting in....I honestly felt like a chicken without a head...running in circles trying to find my way around....that morning i called my now husband Gabriel and said, "You need to come over". Without any explanation he came. We went off to by a pregnancy test.

A few minutes after BAM! the results...i was in the bathroom alone, i waited an d waited and waited what seemed like hours for a 2 minute result. And there i had it PREGNANT! Oh boy, my mind was racing, my heart was pounding, and i can feel the ball at the start of my stomach.

The first thing i said when i walked out of that bathroom was "Are you ready to be a father?" i remember his face as if i still had him standing in front of me. He was ecstatic, over joyed, so happy and i thought how can he be so happy? Don't get me wrong i was excited i thought about how cute my baby would be and how much of an awesome mom i would be and how i would give everything up to be just that. But then i thought...what will my mom say? Will i finish school? College? My job? WAAAYYYY to many things were crossing my mind.

That day we went to eat lunch at Pollo Tropical, no one knew anything yet so Gabriel decided to call his brother Steve. So as he calls his brother he says "So tio how are you?" And i could hear Steve saying "Shut up stop playing" and then Gabriel said it again. I'm sure Steve was panicking on the other end of line thinking OMG my brother is such a fool! Then i decided to at least share with someone, i wasn't ready to share with my mom yet so i called my friend Jennie. She was very supportive and a few days later even bought my some baby outfits.

That afternoon i told Gabriel i cant take it anymore i need to tell my mom. My mom and I have always been very close and I can never hide anything from her. Even if it takes me a few hours to practice how to break the news i do it. So i decided that i wasn't ready to face her but i called. So i told her "Mom we need to talk" as soon as the words came out of my mouth she said "You're pregnant aren't you?" I couldn't answer, i remember thinking "My god this woman is psychic." Now i know its a mother instinct. You kind of just know whats going on without really knowing for sure. And i said "Yes"

That night we sat down my mom, Jorge (My dad) Gabriel and I and thought about the future in a few months we would welcome our baby so we needed a plan.

I have to say it worked out for the best. I never planned on having babies at such a young age, my dreams and goals were to go to school, live on my own, buy a house, a car and then eventually meet Mr. Right and get married. After college have babies and continue on. I did everything backwards! LOL!

I met Mr. Right, had some babies, got married, bought a car, then a house and I'm still in the process of finishing college.

I don't promote teenage pregnancy. My life has not been easy. I can no longer be selfish and just think about myself. At a very early age i had to learn how to be a responsible adult, a good wife, a parent, pay bills i didn't have to pay before etc...

I was DETERMINED not to be a statistic. Teen Mom doesn't amount to anything because she had a child at 17. No that was not going to be me. I had different plans. I had dreams, goals, aspirations to meet. And i set of to do just that.

I quit my job when i was 8 months pregnant and graduated high school a few months after that. My daughter was born in May and she was the cutest most amazing little person in the world. I remember counting her fingers and toes to make sure she was put together just right LOL! That day was by far the most amazing day of my life. (Of course and the birth of my second daughter)

I wanted to be home with her all the time. So that's what i did. I was a stay at home mom for about a year and then decided i need to start looking into college. In fall 2006 i started College. my daughter was only 15 months old. I also started working full time. My granny, agreed to quit her job and watch her for me. My wonderful grandma she so amazing always did everything to help me and see me succeed.

Right when i was about to graduate we decided it was time to welcome another baby into our lives and in march 2009 we welcomed our second daughter. I'm proud to say i graduated with a Bachelors of Science in Psychology in August 2009. And went straight into the Doctoral program 2 weeks later. This year I'll be walking the stage again for my Masters degree in Psychology and god willing in 2014 will complete the doctoral program.

The point of this blog is to give others hope. If you feel stuck and are in a situation that you cant get out of and feel you need to give up. DON'T! Stick to your goals, your dreams, be DETERMINED! Everything is possible through faith and good support. Reach out to others, count on your family and remember that only you can set out to make your life the way you want it. You are in control and in life we will encounter moments that are not always pleasant that make you fall onto your knees but we must continue to live the best way we can. Don't let obstacles change your life and the course of it. Motivate your self to be the best you can be. YOU HAVE IT IN YOU!! 

XOXO,

Daema